Last Week of the Second Semester

Well its our final day of the second semester. It has been tuff this semester, but things are starting to turn in the right direction. I am ready to move forward in my education at Kaplan University. From English Composition class I have learned how to write well. I know that in my future classes my term papers will be written to my best abilities. I hope that next term I can start working on keeping straight A's in my future classes. I know that this is putting a lot on myself, but I want to put forth every effert to make this happen and get the best out of my education. I am excited to move foward and confident I can do it. I did just check my email and people are scaring me about my anatomy exam. I am getting ready to take it, and there seems to be a lot of people who have failed it. They blame it on our teacher not explaining everything to us properly. I believe our professor did a great job in seminar trying to get through the information we had to learn. There is a lot of information in anatomy to learn in a short period of time. I think I have studied as much as I can, and I hope I will do great. These students have put a little fear in the back of my mind that I might fail. I think talking about it here has made me think about how much I do have in my brain. I am ready to take my final and get it over with, and I am sure I will do fine. I hope everyone has a wonderful next semester, and I have enjoyed getting to know everyone. I hope I share some classes in the future with you guys. Thanks for a good semester.

New Start

Well I am glad that this semester is almost over. It has been a difficult semester for me with the things that have went on in my personal life. I know that I have not done my best work this semester, and that I can do so much better. I also am not happy that I let my grades drop when I know that I should have pulled it altogether and attempted to keep my 4.0. I am sure that next semester I can start fresh and keep everything together. I put a lot on myself to keep straight A's, and I am going to make sure that happens next semester.

I have been typing all day today and my hand is very swollen, so I am going to have to go put an ice pack on my wrist soon. It sucks to have a broken wrist, even though it is not my dominate hand I found out that I do use my left hand a lot for stuff I didn't realize. My daughter doesnt take it easy on me either, she likes to try to get my cast off and she tries to make me do things I can't do, because she doesn't understand why I can't do it.

I hope everyone has great experience through the rest of their college courses. I also hope that all the stress in my life calms down so I can just keep my mind focused on my daughter, school, and work.

Stress

So this week has been very stressful. I am having so much trouble keeping up with everything. I have three kids this week, because my parents are out of town. Emma is actually the good child this week, only because my brother and sister are complete brats and don't listen at all. I am also running two tobacco stores, while they are out of town. Having a broken wrists doesn't help any matters at all, especially when I have to clean the house. It drives me crazy when it is dirty, and these kids won't help me out. There hasn't been any change in my uncle. He is starving to death, and his body is still shutting down. I try to keep myself positive about everything, and have faith that god will not give me to much to handle, even though it can seem like it.

Rough Week's

My uncle is in a medical induced coma now. The other day they removed his feeding tube without authorization. I don't understand how they can keep him in a coma, without a feeding tube. My aunt was on the way to the hospital to she totaled one of our company vehicles. My stepdad fired everyone in one of our stores, so I am back to work full time now. Between working and getting my aunt to the hospital I am so behind in my homework. On top of it all my little girl is sick and running very high fevers, so I think I might have to take her to the E.R. to get her checked out.

Rough Week

I am glad that today is the start of a new week. Last week was very rough week, and my whole family is having a tough time getting through everything. My has had several heart attacks in his lifetime. He was feeling very weak on Wednesday, and he knew there was something wrong so he called an ambulance. When he got to the hospital they said there was a leak in his aorta. They told him he needed to be life lined to Methodist to have a chance of survival. After they told him this they informed him they could not find an available helicopter, and he needed to call and say his last goodbye's, because he would need to be taken by ambulance and would probably not survive the trip. He made it to Methodist alive, and they started running test on him, but he was not doing very well. The doctors there told him there was no leak in his aorta, but instead he had a blood clot in his heart. They told him the surgeon would be in Thursday morning to decide whether he needed to have surgery to remove the clot. When the surgeon arrived Thursday morning, he decided he did not have a blood clot, but instead he had an aneurysm that ran from his heart to his groin. They took him into emergency surgery, before anyone could get to the hospital that morning. After he came out of that surgery the doctors realized there was a leak in his aorta, so they took him back into surgery. He has been through two more surgerys to repair damage to his heart, and no one knows if he will ever be able to leave the hospital. There is only a ten percent chance of him surviving, and everyone is waiting to see if he will wake up. Since Wednesday they have also found that one of his kidneys has shriveled up and died, he only has on working lung, and he is in the late stages of emphysema. Please pray for my family, and my uncle. I know we all need it right now.

New things to add to my week

I got a new job today. Which means I have to put Emma in daycare two days a week now, and I was trying to avoid doing that. I know she will be okay and it will probably be better for her to socialize with other kids. I am excited to finally go back to work. I just hope I'm not putting to much on myself, and I will be able to get everything done in a week that I need to get done.

Stress on top of stress on top of stress!

Wow, today has been very stressful. My ex-husband didn't come to pick up his daughter for the weekend. He actually said that work was more important to him. How can anything be more important to someone then their children? I don't understand how he can go so long without seeing Emma. It kills me when she leaves me for the weekend. I am ready for her to go with her dad when its time, but then I can't wait for her to come home. This was supposed to be my weekend to finally relax a little. I have plane tickets to Vegas for the weekend, and now I can't go. My dad and me were going for my birthday, and it would have been the first time going to Vegas for me. Now I am stuck at home, with my beautiful little girl. She is too young to know her dad was coming to get her. I just hope he doesn't do this when she gets older, like my dad did to me and my sister. I remember how hurt I was when my dad didn't show up and didn't call to tell us he wasn't coming. I won't let her feel that hurt, I will do anything to protect her from that pain. Sometimes I just feel like screaming, even though I know it won't help.

College and Single Mom

This week I feel like I may have taken on too much. I know I'm just second guessing myself, but Emma is cutting some molars, and only wants to sit on my lap. It makes it difficult to get homework done. I am made it through as much homework today as I could, because she took a long nap. I am glad she is asleep for the night, so that, I can have some mommy time. We all need our mommy time to keep our sanity, even if it is just a little bit of time. I hope tomorrow Emma will feel better and want to play some.

Week Four of the Semester

I have decided this week that I love to blog. I really do it everyday on my facebook page. I am going to try to blog on here more than once a week for English Composition, because it allows be to vent my feelings when I need to. We learned about plagiarism in English this week. I have had some experience with this in the past. When I was in high school another student printed one of my papers of my computer, when they stayed the night at my house. She then turned my paper in as her own. Not knowing about this I turned in the same paper. I had to go through so much to prove that it was my work and not hers. I was even suspended for it pending the investigation. At the end it was proven the paper was mine, and all I got was an apology and my suspension taken off the record. The other student had to repeat the semester over again, but she never came back to school. I don't believe it is fair for someone to cheat, or steal something that is yours. This is my opinion, and I know opinions can differ somewhat. It is agaist my code of ethics personally and professionally.

Third Week of The Semester

Well this has been a tough week for me. I haven't used my time wisely, and feel like I am drowning in homework. I guess thats the life of a college student and a full time single mother. Going to school online does make it easier to get everything done, that I need to get done in a day. This week I started writing a research paper in English Class and in Anatomy. I have chosen to write about Fetal Alcohol Syndrome for English. It is a topic I am very passionate about. I have found a lot of interesting information about this disease, and I don't understand how someone can do this to a child. It is a completely preventable disease, but there are thousands of children born with Fetal Alcohol Syndrome every year. I chose to write about the Endocrine System in Anatomy Class. I am not sure what direction I am going to go with that paper yet, but I will figure it out. Starting tomorrow I will get my time management back on schedule, so I don't feel like I am behind in my school work and my house work. Emma was sick this week so it has been more difficult. I hope she gets better soon, because I hate to see her feel so bad.

Introduction to My Life

My name is Trista Coolbaugh. I am twenty-five years old and a single mom to my beautiful daugter Emma. In 2002 I joined the army right after high school, and loved every minute of it. I was injured in a training exercise in 2004, and was discharged from the army. I got married to Kyle Coolbaugh on September 1, 2006, and started a new life with him. Soon after we got married I realized there was alot more to him, that I had never seen before. It was like on our wedding day I became his property, and I was no longer my own person. I went along with it for awhile, and I began to lose sight of who I was. I was no longer the fun, loving, energectic person that I once was. I became pregnant, and things got worse for my marriage. I expected my husband to grow up, and become a father. I was also determined to be the strong minded person that I knew I was deep down inside. I didn't see much of my husband during my pregnancy. We had different work schedules, and when I got home from work he would go out to the bar with his friends. This was an every night occurance, and he would never come home. His friends became more important to him then me and the small innocent child I was carrying. On April 14, 2008 I had my beautiful princess Emma Nicole Coolbaugh. Him and his mother came in the hospital and tried to control everything. I had spoken to my doctor and told her that they would try to run everything in the hospital, and I told her not to listen to them. I had a planned C-section, and I only wanted my mother to be with me. She said she was fine with that, and she knew he hadn't been involved in my pregnancy. She was not the doctor that delivered Emma, and some how my mother-in-law got to come in the room with me. After I had Emma I kicked everyone out of my room, because I couldn't see why they would care if they hadn't cared all along. I gave my husband the chance to grow and be a father, but his friends and partying still came first. I left my husband within a few months of Emma being born. I decided to go back to school so I can make a wonderful life for her. I now getting a divorce, and I know that she will never have to grow up with miserable parents. I have found the person I used to be, and I will never let anyone take that away from me. Kyle never did grow up, and doesn't do anything for his daughter. He will come and get her for a night once in awhile, but even then she usually stays with her grandpa or grandma. I know I made the right decision, and I will do everything I can to make sure she is never unhappy with her life. Its time to start a new chapter in our lives by starting over from scratch. I know that I can do it, and everyday will be a new challenge.